And this is how I came to know the name of the girl whom I had met umpteen times (joking but still a lot of times) but never bothered to take any interest in knowing her. We didn't become friends that day; I didn't offer my friendship to her and even she didn't. We chatted that day for almost 40 minutes before she got down on her station.
The things had changed a somewhat in the past few months. After my initial bitterness towards the college and its environment, I was finally getting adapted to them. Very soon I had came to know that this kind of alien and bitter attitude towards my own alma mater won't take me anywhere. I had made some friends also and though I never tried to show it, I had begun to enjoy the college life a little.
My heart though hadn't recovered yet and I was still not ready for any relationship. I treated girls as my other classmates only and so wouldn't chat with them as freely yet. I was reluctant to talk much with Chhavi that day too but her crying episode had led to our small chat session and that had been helpful in knowing two things about her
a) She had brains unlike many other girls in my class
b) In spite of that she lacked everything when it came to personality. Her way of dressing, talking, standing - everything was devoid of style and sophistication.
But there was something else that relived me. Those 40 odd minutes assured me that I could never fall in love with this girl. Secondly I had told her clearly before she got down from the train " Chhavi, please do not talk with me in front of my
friends. I mean avoid talking with me in college except for any very important work
since people here are pretty quick in labeling a girl and a boy as a couple. I hope you are understanding it. "
She understood it quickly. For a small town girl, the word couple itself was pretty scary. She nodded her head and left.
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